Running.....
We are so busy in doing things one-by-one. There is no chance of taking rest. I mean even if we think that ok! after my MBBS I will take a break of one year and then will think what to do next. Oh No!! are you foolish! my other mind echoed in me. How can you think of thinking what to do after your MBBS? It's obvious that you have to do MD. Just like how people who complete their BE just go blindly for ME or MBA or MTech. Who thinks about their own interests?? Oh! that is why there are so many Doctors in film industry, theater industry....even in tv serials. After getting the degree they get the realisation that the degree which is taken by them is not really of their own interest.
Hummmm!! It's quite tricky. If we take time to think what exactly we want to do in our own life (apart from earning money) we will loose our own time....at least we have that fear..........Yes, I remember, when I passed class-X, I couldn't get time to take rest.......I mean which I was needed very badly. Why? ....because I was suffering from jondice and that also for about 6-7 months. My father asked me to take a gap and then appear for 11th (Science...English medium) but I couldn't afford the idea itself. I immediately replied....No! all my friends will go ahead of me and I will be behind by one year. At the same time I am remembering that during ancient times.....people used to take a break of one or two years for the sake of their health. I was remembering the name of Mr Bal Gagadhar Tilak......who took a break of a year to recover his health and then proceeded in life. Did he lagged behind during his time??............if not then why we think in that way................Our life has become so fast that we cann't even afford any time to think about our life. Where are we running?..........behind what?? or are we running away from ourselves?? or trying to run ahead of time??
Time is Flying!!
I heard the bang of the big bell on the wall of the college library just opposite to my room's window. Being in half sleep, still in understanding state...struggling to get out of bed, I looked outside my window. It was so pale atmosphere it seemed that it was about to become dark...and I heard the bell ringing four times. Suddenly I looked at the same wall clock which was showing 4 O'clock.
I was disappointed. I was sleeping for whole night and almost whole day. I was sure, I lost a day in my life. I thought to call Mansi, one of my college friends, but suddenly noticed that she will be in the department. I heard a sound of opening the lock of the opposite door. Thought........ Mamta returned from the lab...usually in November she returns at around 4.00 p.m. Today I wanted to search some articles in the journals from the university library, but my whole day was gone. I missed a day in my life. I was horrified and feeling depressed.
In that haste I logged on to the laptop and tried to find whether anybody was online. Purosefully, I kept Indian time in my laptop. Something was wrong. In the haste I changed the time to 10.30 at night (IST). It was very strange none of my friends except Priya, one of the friends from Pune, was online. Due to disappointment, I wanted to talk desperately to somebody...so pinged Priya. I asked her, how come you are online at 10.30 p.m.? because usually she used to be online in her office hours. She replied...No! it's not 10.30 p.m., now I am in the office and it's 1.38 p.m. (IST). I tried to clarify her but she told me that it's 1.30p.m. To confirm the time I just looked again at the same wall clock outside my window..............and it was showing....8.08 a.m.
I realiesed what would have happened. Still outside the light was very dim. It was November in UK........so depressing and pale atmosphere. I might have heard half of the bell ringing and was in half sleep so saw (in a haste) 4.00 O'clock instead 8.00 O'clock. Probably Mamta was going to the lab and I thought she is coming from the lab. Now I was completely awake.
I immediately thanked Priya and logged out. I was so happy that I did not missed one day of my life and felt relaxed and proceeded for the dayily routine.
During those 10 minutes I was really disappointed and depressed by realising loss of a day! If I would have really been sleeping and would have lost a day in my life??......How starge is the time......due to the outside darkness I felt that it is evening.......but it was not.
How important TIME is in our lives!! We all know that it is flying like anything.................before this I also was knowing the truth about time......but I really cann't express my feeling when I realised that!!
A Beautiful Mind!!
It's really a beautiful story of a developing journey of a beautiful mind. It's a story of transformation of acold arogant genius youth to a warm caring old aged passing through a disastrous path of insanity.....it's a story of development of a relationship which initially needed a legal certificate (broken legaly in between) to more intimate with complete understanding of eachother without any legal certificate. It's a story of damaged childhoods, of two sons of a Nobel Laurate, which has put deep impressions on their lives. It's a story of a love which didn't get the desired recognition. It's a story of development of a girlish infatuation which has servived the disillusionments, hardships and disappointments, in to a strong mature supporting love. It's a story of an honest struggle for a prize which had been done unknowingly. It's a story of strong realisations of the realities of a life........
It's simply beautiful........